Everything appears to be colliding mid-flow. Amid the swirling I've made some rash and impulsive decisions trying to prepare for an uncertain future.Read More
It took for-evah to find the "before" photo of this canvas on my computer. My photo files are such a mess. I start to clean them up, but never quite get around to completing the task. Anyone else?
According to the photo data I made this in early 2016. I liked it. Then I didn't like it. I loved the process. Needless to say, it sat hidden and stashed away until a couple of weeks ago when I decided to open a fresh jar of gesso and make something new. I've been purging a lot, and this latest purge has been about purging art too. Some canvas pieces are getting do-overs. Some are in my website shop looking for new homes.
I'm sort of diggin' this! It looks awesome hanging above my planner desk.
I am also celebrating Fall by offering 40% off my Etsy Listings until the end of October with coupon code HAPPYFALL17. Most of the items will be expiring soon and once they do they will no longer be available. This includes stickers, mini-journals, greeting cards and original art.
Have a fabulous Tuesday!!
It's been a difficult ride here as of late. Life has a way of knocking you off balance, if you were balanced at all to begin with. Sometimes you think you've about got it handled when BAM! It kicks you in the shins.
One thing I know for sure is that we are resilient. I am resilient. And I've got about a third of that thing called Irish stubbornness in me too. :)
I've been stuck in a vat of darkness. I've been swimming around in the mess and clutter and having grand pity parties in my head. I was fighting against it. I don't know why I do that because I believe that when we fight against something, we get more of it. It steals our thoughts and energy and just keeps piling it on so we get more and more of it. So I stopped. I let it ride.
and then I started to purge.
I've been purging a lot of our home space lately. We moved into this small house from a much larger house more than a year ago and I never did get to a point where I felt like we were home. It's been very difficult to breathe or relax. My art space is about a third of what it was. A lot of it has been purged too.
And now, now I have decided that I need to release some of the art and other projects I have made over the past few years. I have gathered together some things I have made that weren't originally intended to be sold. During my current purging session I decided that I simply had to dig deeper and let things go. It was time to be ruthless in letting go and that included art that has been stacked and waiting for me to find a space for them. This collection of Motley Extras is not going into my Etsy Shop, they are listed right here on my website. Currently I am shipping these items in the USA only, and the prices include shipping fees. Some of these items received a great deal of praise and love on social media so I'm hoping they find good homes.
Here's a little preview of what is available today.
Today marks the end of another year of ICAD (Index Card A Day) with Tammy Garcia of Daisy Yellow Art. It was my fourth time around over the seven years Tammy has hosted this challenge, but only the second time I actually finished with 61 cards.
I'm not very good at doing challenges and often skip them altogether. I'm a prompt resister too, so I often do my own thing. Which is lovely because Tammy supports a "no rules" policy. :) I fell behind and even lost count at one point. It was hard to not beat myself up about it. If you have found yourself behind, keep going.
I spent some time on the back porch this morning, sipping my cuppa and admiring my stack of cards; all the texture, color and threads. I love that good vibes feeling and celebrated my stick-to-itiveness this year. Sure there were a few days over the past month that I was making four or five cards to catch up, but I'm okay with that.
At the beginning of the 2017 ICAD challenge I discovered that a box from a Starbucks mug purchase was the perfect size for my index card art collection. I quickly set out to paint the box and viola!
Overall, I am very happy with my collection this year. (Click on a photo to enlarge & scroll). You might recognize where some of my inspiration came from. I tried a few new things this year, practiced making abstracts and found a way to make room for my sewing machine so I could add some stitching. I love seeing them on display together.
As is my usual manner of art journaling, I had no idea what would become of this page. I often don't know what I need or how I'm feeling when I begin. I just know that I have to do it.
So I begin.
I've been reading four different books as of late. I'm not a huge reader and aside from the occasional novel, I rarely read a book cover to cover. I prefer books I can flip through at any given moment and discover what it is I may need in that moment.
The four books I am currently reading include: Writing as a Way of Healing by Louise DeSalvo, Mothers Who Can't Love by Susan Forward, PhD, Will I Ever Be Good Enough? by Karyl McBride, Ph.D., and most recently downloaded to my Kindle App, Letting Go by David Hawkins.
I learned about Writing as a Way of Healing from my friend Teresa, The Rightbrain Planner. I began to practice the journaling technique described by the author using my childhood abuse, but I became bored. I've spent a lot of time in therapy working on this issue. I realized that my emotional state shifted gears when I reached the point after the abuse.
This led me to my next two book purchases, Mothers Who Can't Love and Will I Ever Be Good Enough? These two books have been validating. I shared a photo of them on Instagram and received so many comments from other women who had either read the books, or expressed a desire to do so.
Then I read this blog post by Mandy Steward and decided to add Letting Go because the emotional work I am embarking on is going to be so much about letting go.
This journal page manifested from all of this. I didn't see it coming. The circles colliding and leading to a ladder of escape. I'm reading these books and having all the feels, or lack thereof, from the past and they're colliding with the present. There are moments when I feel as though pieces of me are breaking away, but they're just swirling around bumping into Planet Denial. I want to escape to Planet Future, but I can't get there until I let go of Planet Past and acknowledge how much it is destroying Planet Present.
I'm not very good at analogies, but it hit me that all the varying aspects of my life are colliding. My galaxy is out of alignment and my past is eclipsing my present.
On the opposite page I defaulted to flowers, which I often do when I'm trying to feel better. Flowers begin in darkness, buried, but always sprout up and open wide to all the possibilities.
I was just published in heART Journal Magazine! Yep! I am part of the July/August 2017 issue along with some other wonderful artists.
If you follow my page on Facebook, I will be sharing a code redeemable for a free issue. Time is limited!
I've been a subscriber of heART Journal Magazine for a couple years at least. I've really enjoyed this digital magazine that pops up on my iPad. I enjoy all the tips and video tutorials included in each issue. You can find heART Journal Magazine in iTunes and Google Play. If you prefer access on your computer, via a PDF, you can find that here.
I had never done any type of tutorial video before I was invited to participate in the current issue. And you can tell. LOL. But it was an awesome experience and I did enjoy pushing myself to try new things and stretching to learn about some things I'd never done. I think each little snippet of voice-over took two dozen tries! LOL. I did rather enjoy it and I am excited to continue learning.
I hope you enjoy this issue and subscribe! That would be awesome!
Have a happy weekend!
How 'bout a little peek of my art space?
A year ago we moved into a smaller house, about 600 square feet smaller. I went from a loft studio with approximately 120 square feet to what is supposed to be a dining area with about 49 square feet. On the downside, there are no walls or doors or privacy. I get all the foot traffic and it's far easier for my people to interrupt my process. On the upside I can view workshop videos on the 42" television via Apple TV in the living area and the coffee pot is just steps away.
My husband and I have talked about having an art studio built...think Tuff Shed. But that'll be down the road a bit.
For now, here's what I've got. My view from my favorite spot on the sofa:
Needless to say, my creative space has taken many shapes and forms over the past year. I have arranged, and rearranged, and purged and reorganized, and purged and reorganized some more. I started with the cubby system I had in my art loft, but it didn't work. I tried downsizing that system with a new top, but that didn't work either. Finally, I talked my husband into going to Ikea. I started with just two storage units. I have five now.
I keep the most essential things in this area. You know, the things I actually need to make art. Three large bookcases I had in my art loft are now split. Two reside in the living area and one in the kitchen nook. The two we keep in the living area still house most of the same items: art journals, old planners, books and treasures. Non-essential items, things I don't need every day to make art: cello bags, shipping supplies, binding supplies, my Silhouette Cameo, etc. are stored in the closet of my husband's home office.
The narrower Ikea storage units holding my custom painted desktop (a piece of plywood I painted) hold everything I need for planning and managing the household. I call it my planning desk. Rarely can you see the top of it. :)
Against the wall is my art desk. It is a custom painted 6.5 foot Ikea desktop. I like to work standing up so I purchased some PVC pipe and connectors to add short legs that allow it to rest atop three larger IKEA storage units. The space between holds smaller storage solutions.
The lighting in this space isn't the best, but I hope you still enjoy this slideshow.
When I started blogging I barely knew what the word meant. I hadn't a clue what I was doing, or even if I could do it. I almost find myself laughing at "When I started blogging" because I still feel like I have no idea what I'm doing.
One thing I have learned during this incredibly sporadic blogging journey is I have no idea who the hell I am. Most days I'm not even sure what I'm doing here. My mind is all over the place. I can be working on a project and then see something that grabs my interest....bam! I'm off.
There's nothing wrong with doing so, but it does have a downside. I never really master anything or become confident in anything because I'm always fluttering around from this thing to that thing over there. Getting back to the first thing is hard without a time machine.
This truly is a fork in the road for me; a new beginning. My initial vision was entirely too broad and too vague. I didn't think about what it meant to me or what it might look like. I'm realizing now that this vagueness was part of my struggle. I was throwing stuff out into cyberspace, but I wasn't sharing the process, the feels or thoughts behind them. Another obstacle I make for myself, I share virtually every creative thing I do on Instagram. Again, nothing wrong with that, other than blogging about something I've already shared publicly makes it feel like I am regurgitating old news.
With all this in mind, I am now working on getting clearer in my mind about what my vision means to me and how I would like it to look. As well as getting clearer about what constitutes a blog post, what I want it to look like and how I want it to feel.
Are there any questions you think I should be asking myself?
....and so glad to see you here browsing my new website. Yep! I did it again! Change is good, right?
I have been in that dark place again and wanting to come out into the light, but if you live with anxiety and depression, you know how hard that can be sometimes.
Developing a new website has been on my list since the beginning of the year, but I keep putting it off. I keep telling myself it will reflect badly on me; it will make me appear fickle, unorganized and flighty. How is anyone going to take me seriously if I keep bouncing around and fading out? When asked what I do or why my clothes are full of paint how can I raise my head and respond with "I am a mixed media artist" and "Yes, I do sell my work" when I.am.so.not.prepared?
But this has been on my list. I've always used "free" blogging services. Some served me better than others. I'm now embarking on a "not-so-free" blogging service and struggling with my worthiness to do so. Am I worth the money it will cost to use this blogging service? Will paying for it encourage me to connect more regularly? Until recently I have spent far more on Starbuck's drinks every month.
So....Here I am. I've decided to take the plunge. I am choosing to dive right in and decide that Yes! I am worth it!